Little Miss Sam Love.

For the last 2 years I had posted my “Not-So-Grown-Up Christmas Wish List”.  I always asked what I wanted for Christmas, either concretely or abstractly. 

I thank God, little by little I receive some of them and God really made me happy.  

This time of season, what my wish for Christmas (actually, not just Christmas but as I go through my journey) will be that:

★ My parents and my family will always be in great state of health and they will always be safe from harm and other bad things. (that also includes me)

★ I will continue to enjoy and love my job, and the people who are with me at work. I wish they will all be supportive, friendly and will definitely guide me to be better in my craft.

★ More wisdom, courage, positivity and happiness to me and the rest of the people who really are truly dear to me.

 That’s all.

 This 2011, has been a roller coaster ride for me, though it seems that this year can be described as “boring” for my life, ‘coz during the past early months the reel of my life was static, stagnant…dull. 

However, as dull as it may look like, 2011 became as significant as 2010 (where a lot of remarkable victorious moments happened) that’s the truth. A year of splendid learning and realization poked me and woke me up to be better. During those gray encounters I had, I was able to grab the bright reality and know what God really wants me to realize in order for me to make my life more colorful as what He really wants me to have, and what I also want to have.

 Yet, some of the greatest gifts I received not just for Christmas but throughout the year were the experiences I had during the “dull” life I lived this 2011. Those “dull” periods made me love life more.

- Patience… believe me it will take you a long long way.

- There’s no such feeling as “boring”. You may not want to just sit there, do nothing and utter the words “Leche, ang boring naman oh”, you handle your life, now it’s up to you if you want it “boring” or “interesting”, there are countless of verbs created in this world, try recalling them as many as you can so you may know what other actions you can do to make your life worth living.

- Whatever it is happening to your life right now is maybe because of an unexplained reason, but sooner or later you’ll be able to explain  it, and that’s what life is all about “Seek the unknown, explore your horizons, have fun!”

- Feel each moment of your life. You can never take it back once it passed away. It’s like capturing a picture in your camera, once you captured the moment, the rest will just be a plain memory and a collection in your photo album. You can experience the same moments over again, but the feeling of you experiencing those identical moments will always be different from the other.

- First impressions are not the last. It doesn’t determine the kind of person he/she is. Don’t stick on first impressions.

- You can always turn the ordinary into extraordinary. It’s just a matter of outlook and positivity

- Be positive. The hardest part. It’s hard to transform your emotion and your reaction into positive ones in a given negative circumstance. But reality, in every negativity rest a hidden positivity, there’s always a brighter side in that long horizontal line. 

- Love yourself. Love just the way you are. There are more of inner and outer you just yet to be unraveled.

- Don’t waste a great opportunity. They don’t knock on your door everyday. Would you rather close your door and suffer resentment, haunting you of what it might have been if you allowed it to enter at your door step? Or open your door widely, welcome it with open arms and hope it can really turn out well. At the end of the day, it did. But if not, then, there will always yet to come. Wait and be patient it might be a better one.

- When you feel tired and annoyed with your current work, just think of this first: “Is my reason worth quitting this job?” You might be lucky to be in that position already where thousands of people are hungry to take your place.

- All misery, hardship, and sadness ends. Don’t give up. Life doesn’t run in straight lines, it runs in circles. Sometimes you’re up, sometimes you’re down. 

- Be submissive. Humble yourself. We all start at the bottom. But once we accept the fact that we begin small, and then in no time, we may be bigger. Follow. So we can learn to lead.

- One step at a time. Don’t rush. We might wake up one day, already turning 40 and it’s just sad that we age but we did not enjoy life.

- Don’t lose hope. I didn’t lose hope in loving my profession. It took me 4 years to realize I have the calling.

- Treasure the people who love you. Treasure and love them dearly. We are nothing without them.

- Having few true friends is better than having a large network of pretentious friends. Quality beats Quantity all the time! (I got this from twitter =))

- You  don’t need to change your principles or even your self just to be “in” as long as you don’t hurt others then you’re good. You don’t need the approval from others who you find it hard to get along with. Don’t force yourself. You can never please everybody. If they really want you to be in their circle then, they will make it easy for you to be “in” it, you don’t go  begging for their attention. There are almost 7 billion people in this world, for sure there are people who’ll definitely value and genuinely love you just the way you are.

- It always starts hard. But once you got used to it, you’ll be better than you think. It’s a matter of time to cope up. Again, patience…

- Forgive though it’s really hard to forget. Just forgive. Peace is what it can bring you.

- Do your best. God will do the rest.

- Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray harder everyday. Prayer can move mountains.

- Trust God completely. Everything will fall into place. God has already provided a schedule for our dreams.  Just trust Him. 

I let God control my life… I am sure He’ll lead me to what’s the best for me. God knows best. Let Him carry you. Always be thankful even in the littlest blessing we receive, the moment we open our eyes and see the beaming sun, means life and it’s already a wonderful blessing, God can give more if we trust and love Him. And this Christmas season it’s all about thanking Him.

 “We are livin’ in a material world and I am a material girl!” kanta ni Madonna noong 80s. Maraming tao na ngayon ang napakamaterialistic. Importante sa kanila ang magkaroon ng madaming madaming pera, at wala ng iba pang hangad kundi ang yumaman. Siyempre, hindi ko ipagkakait na isa ako sa mga taong ito, gusto kong maging MAYAMAN, sino bang ayaw? Sino bang tao ang magsasabi ng “Ayoko maging mayaman, gusto ko maging MAHIRAP”! Sometimes, I found myself daydreaming, what would be my life if I was born from a family of business tycoons, who own multi-billion dollar companies, and be an heiress for the throne (Make way Paris Hilton!). What if I am famous and graduated from a prestige University abroad (Okspord? Harbard? Good luck naman kung kaya ng utak ko diba)?  What if I could just slap anyone’s face with my platinum credit cards (yung tipong mala-teleserye, na ang mga dating inaapi nagiging palaban na!)? What if I drive luxurious cars (I love to drive a Perari and a Maserati)? What if I have a Universal Citizenship (Kahit outerspace kaya kong iexplore). What if I live a life of a princess, marry a handsome prince and live happily ever after in a Castle in London (Bakingham to be exact, hindi man si Prince William dahil alam ko may Kate Middleton na siya, si Prince Harry nalang sana… Prince Harry Potter, why not gwaping kaya yun!)? What if I am the lucky one to star on a movie franchise that will win the World and will claim a spot in the History of Movies (Sana may Harry Potter 8! Baka pwede na nila ako isali, Asian Version naman, kakasawa din ang all British cast… Puro Asians ang gaganap, I volunteer to be Hermione!)? What if I just won a Billion dollar prize from a lottery, be an instant billionaire? What if? What if?  What if?” But no, I am not.

And that’s when I’ll wake up from reality! Wala ako lahat ng pinapangarap ko, impossible it seems…Imposible nga.

 Masarap mag-daydream?  Tara ipagpatuloy pa natin ang pangarap! (Dito lang naman eh, habang binabasa mo ang article na ito. Pag tapos nito gigising ka na sa katotohanan…) Game?

      Gusto kong maexperience kahit man lang maging 2^nd cousin ni Manny Pacquiao (kaya lang kahit i-trace ko pa sa pinakadulo ng hibla ng roots ng family tree namin, walang “Pacquiao” ang naligaw sumanga. Sayang!) Ikaw? Gusto mo nun? Dream mo makahawak ng Hermes and Louis Vuitton bags, sosyal bayong mo lang yan sa pamamalengke. Makasuot ng Jimmy Choo , makadamit araw araw ng Chanel at Burberry, oo pambahay mo lang yang mga brands na yan, gusto mo din ba mag tour around the world na walang inaalalang mauubos ang pera kasi you’ve got more of it? Magshopping ng bonggang-bongga sa Hongkong, magpakasawa ng pagpa-spa sa Indonesia, makaattend at mainvite sa mga super sosyal na parties, makipagtagisan ng luxurious brands at iparinig ang husay mong makipagtalastasan saIngles, Pranses at Espanyol! You’re too proud of your wealth, too proud of yourself. Magkaroon ng charity to help the less fortunate, or better magtayo ng sarili mong foundation for those in need. Sa sobrang dami mong pera mabaliw-baliw ka na dahil hindi mo na malaman kung paano mo gagamitin at gagastusin ang mga ito, kaya kesa naman sa walang kwentang bagay mo ito ilaan, why not doon nalang sa madaming pwedeng makinabang (yan ang takbo ng utak mo sa mga oras na yan) ANG SARAP NA MAGING MAYAMAN.  

Gusto mo MAGTAGUMPAY (lahat naman diba)! Equivalent ng “tagumpay” sa’yo “kayamanan”, masasabi mo lang na SUCCESSFUL ka  kung MAYAMAN ka na at kaya mo ng maipamaypay ang limpak limpak mong PERA, higaan ang banig-banig mong credit cards. Yun nga ba talaga ang kahulugan ng tagumpay? Yun nga ba?  YOU WANT MORE! MORE! MORE! Yun ang successful sayo? Ang hirap makuntento noh? Sabi nga ng isang taong madalas kong pinakikinggan, “Ang mga tao kasi ngayon, kapag SIMPLE naman ang buhay nila, ang tingin nila MAHIRAP na sila. Hindi na nila alam ang tunay na description ng MAHIRAP. Para kasi sa kanila, kung hindi natutugunan ang kanilang mga kagustuhan, mga damit, sapatos mga material na bagay  na luho lamang, mahirap na sila ng lagay na yun, hindi na nila naiisip yung mga bagay na kailangan nila nasa kanila naman na. kaya ang pagiging SIMPLE nila sa estado ng buhay katumbas na ng pagiging MAHIRAP“. Ang tinitingnan kasi yung kulang, pano yung sobra?  Hindi mo nakikita, kaya ayan yung sobra umaapaw nalang ng hindi mo namamalayan, hindi mo man lang nalaman na meron ka.

Hindi man business tycoons ang magulang mo, at kahit banana cue lamang ang business niyo, maswerte ka dahil sa banana cue na yan, naipapadama ng mga magulang mo sayo ang umaapaw na pagmamahal nila, bawat tuhog sa stick at pag prito ng saging sa asukal, ikaw ang inaalala nila, kung paano nila matutugunan ang mga pangagailangan mo, ilang paso narin ang natamo nila, ilang pawis narin ang pumatak sa noo nila, ilang mga personal na pangarap narin ang kinalimutan nila para sayo, you may not have the richest parents  but you have the most wonderful parents in the world, who always support you and guide you to live your life the way God wants you to live it, they never fail to be loving parents. Kahit na hindi ka heiress sa isang multi-billion dollar company, “Heiress” ka sa hindi mababayarang values and principles na tinuro ng pamilya mo sa’yo. Wala ka mang Universal Citizenship or any citizenship other than Philippines, no mansions all over the world, yet, you have a simple home, where you and your family share the most beautiful moments of your lives, it’s never empty, and a home full of life and happiness. Hindi ka man nagmamaneho ng fancy cars, nakakasakay ka naman sa isang sasakyang kumportable at nadadala ka sa paroroonan mo ng ligtas. Though you are not a Princess who’ll marry a handsome Prince, yet, together with your family, you treat each other like VIP and royalty and that’s because of Love. You may not yet be with a Prince, but someday, God will give you the one, who is worth of your Love and likewise you are, of his Love. Kahit na hindi ka isang movie star, your life actually is a movie, and you’ll always be the lead star, kung mapapanood mo nga sa movies ang laging kwento ay ang mga buhay ng ordinaryong tao tulad natin, how colorful it is to be like you, parang movie din ang buhay mo. Tama?

Siguro sometimes, you want to be glorified that bad, taking yourself away far from God. Well, the truth is God is the one that must and only be glorified, He’s the one who gave us life, the one who gave us graces to be inspired and write the most endearing stories of what we are in this world. Like Jesus, we should be humble. He is humble when He was crucified on the cross, He is The King of Heaven, yet He let mankind persecute Him to save us from sin.

 Ang batayan ng pagiging “MATAGUMPAY” ay hindi lamang sa kung gaanong “PERA” ang kaya mong maisampal sa pagmumukha ng taong kinaiinisan mo dahil nalalamangan ka niya at isinumpa mong lalagpasan mo balang araw at kung gaano ka katanyag, kung gaano kadami ang connections mo, affiliations mo at kung gaano ka napupuri ng mga tao. Pinakaimportante sa lahat na na”eenjoy” mo ang kung anong meron ka, hindi lamang sa kuntento ka dahil no choice wala ka magawa kaya ganun nalang. Kuntento ka kasi every second of you living your life sobrang nagenjoy ka, mahal mo ang ginagawa mo, at hindi ito nagiging burden sa’yo, hindi ka lang nagsisikap at nagsisipag dahil may gusto kang maapakan at upang may maipagyabang ka, nagsisikap ka, nagtitiyaga at nagsisipag dahil you’re desiring of that immeasurable fulfillment, and that’s you stepping on the capital letters of HAPPINESS, paano ka magiging MASAYA? Wag kang maging uhaw sa katanyagan at sa pagkapanalo, maging uhaw ka sa kalooban ng Diyos sa’yo, dahil yoon ang “THE BEST” sa lahat ng mga ninanais mo. Ano gising na ba tayo sa reyalidad? Gumising ka na, ang mga materyal na bagay na akala mong siyang makakapagpasaya sayo ng buong-buo, yun nga ba talaga?

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“Sa gubat may malaking itim na aso ang humarang sa amin, pagkalakilaki talaga, kaya kumaripas kami ng takbo!”

I heard this story 10 times already, but my ears never got tired of listening to this same old adventure which my father told me. I will forever fancy those stories he’s telling me before sleep. He was such a great story teller for me. When I was a kid, I remember that before I went to bed, I kept on asking him to tell me amazing stories about his childhood, and though he’s tired and sleepy, he still carried on to make my whole day complete. But unfortunately, there’s a payment per story, in every story he’s telling me there should be a corresponding hand massage. I am a fan so it didn’t matter much, I did it in exchange. He told me his encounters with huge black dogs, huge black birds, and huge black pigs and any animal in the Farmville family which in exception is huge and black. All animals can be seen in your Facebook’s Farmville right? Well, I do believe and I always got amazed by his tales especially when I was still a kid, but though now that I am all grown up, I still enjoy them, for the reason of course, he’s my father, I am so delighted thinking that he is the hero of his quests, and it’s actually fun listening and imagining those wonderful exaggerations, I felt like I was turned back 10 years young. I think it’s also healthy for the creativity of mind that I can connect with his awesome thoughts and imaginations, though I do not drown myself in imagining and making my own world, since indulging in it might lead to insanity (laughs).

Some of his stories also pertain in his life at sea, since his job was there, not that he is an assistant of Little Mermaid, but he works in a ship, under Jack Sparrow… Of course, I am joking… Anyway since he’s working in a ship, by all means, he really has variety and wide experiences regarding different places, and different cultures of other countries he went to, he was able to meet different people, befriended them and shared stories with each other.

So when he comes home, he has loads to tell me. New adventures, some of it, if not, that same old huge, black mammal he saw in the forest when he was young.

One of his stories I can share which really inspired me a lot, actually always, is how he got where he is right now. My father used to tell me, he is some kind of a poor boy living in a province, he took care of horses, he went for fishing just to have some food in their table, got left in the middle of the sea, where big waves hunting his boat down, he got to climb coconut trees to sell, and other farm works we usually see in the province.  What he just wanted was to study and have a stable job to provide his daily living. He dreamed simply. Because from where he is that time, all he could ask for is to upgrade his living just as one level high. He was sent here in Manila, due to his persistence to finish his studies, he wanted to study criminology in college but ended up to be a Marine Transportation graduate. He was a working student, he earned and dedicated it for his tuition fee, I don’t know how he did it but that was so amazing , even I,  will have so much difficulty adjusting my schedules, I don’t know if I can survive if I am in his shoes back then . Finally he graduated, all credits to his own sweat and tears and most of all his perseverance and his goal to finish his studies. The rest is history. From a simple dream to study, because of hardwork , perseverance and most of all, full trust in God, he didn’t only took one step higher but climbed a whole staircase to achieve where he is right now .

I am very proud of my father and for me, if I am going to be asked who’s  my idol, whom I do I look up to? I ain’t gonna drop any celebrity or whoever public figure, I am just going tell them that my idols are my PARENTS. They both dream simply, they didn’t expect so much in life, what they did was to strive hard, be not jealous of others who have the things they wish they could have, rather, they became resourceful of what they only have,  they are courageous in facing their endeavors and of course pray to God for His guidance.

Then after telling his story about his dreams, he didn’t just put me to sleep soundly, he also inspired me a lot, he implanted very important life lessons in me. He made me believe that dreams do come true, as long as you do your job well, and believe that God will always lead your way. He didn’t expect so much in life, in fact his dreams are really simple from the start. What he did was to do his best to have growth, as well as to expand his dreams and be more motivated and inspired. Then, he got more than what he asked for. Life really has lots of beautiful surprises.

His stories are the most wonderful and precious to me. That’s why I am so proud to say that my most favorite story teller in the world- is MY FATHER.

Nurses being jobless… Nurses being unemployed…. Nurses being unpaid…Nurses paying thousands to hospitals for them to train without the compromise of employment… Nurses working overtime without compensations…Nurses with a ratio of 1: ward…Nurses abused…Nurses’ low income…They might say all the nasty words they can say about that profession. Blimey those who ridicule don’t have any idea about them. They are reckless in blurting out heinous statements, not knowing they’re important in the society. They don’t know a thing about what they’ve been through before they were handed the license they’re dying to have and what do they really do in this profession? The skills they are striving to master for 4 years or more? How delicate and cautious can their responsibilities be? They help people to be alive. (Ok, I know doctors have the same responsibilities as them, but it doesn’t mean they’re anything less.) They have responsibility in saving lives, they have the capacity to save lives, they care for people and that’s what they are entitled to do, to care for them, curing them maybe is beyond of their studies but I daresay,  caring is one step closer to cure. Without their care, I doubt a diabetic foot can protect itself from harboring infection. This might sound much defensive, but that’s the truth, they have an important role in the society, they are key people here to help those who are sick to have better lives and the way they are being mocked right now, I tell you, no profession deserves such treatment. they work their hearts and minds out to act the best of what they have learned and gained from their experience and studies, they have risky jobs here, again I am proud to say they help people to be alive. Yet the One who handles life is not us but God. Life is the most precious gift God gave us. They help people live but it is not within our power to know what God’s plan is for a certain person.

Prior to entering college, some aren’t into nursing at all. Though they didn’t feel bad about it but maybe it’s not their thing or they were just influenced with their surroundings and other people. Experience says it all, before choosing this profession, one should realize that being a nurse is not only a job, it’s a vocation, one should do this with passion and art. I mean if you don’t love serving people, if you are not liking what you’re doing, that unfortunate patient of yours will receive a devastating treatment from you.  And I cannot swallow the fact that maybe some of them are doing the job for $$$$$$$$$. (hundred thousandths of them), on the other hand, we cannot blame them, they have their reasons for that. Reality check, I quite did! When I was in my senior year in HS, everybody took it up for college, murmurs about how rich you can be in a flash if you’re a nurse were the buzz in our school. It’s like, after graduation you’ll get your diploma, pass your boards, get your license, voila! Start earning! After 2 years, you can go to any country you like and earn more! I was inspired by Queen Elizabeth then, I dream of going to London, to earn £, Pounds, plus, I might as well get the chance to meet and greet my long time crush then, Daniel Radcliffe (yes, I am that shallow). I thought it was easy as 1,2,3. Everybody chose it, so why not conform to them, majority wins they say, maybe what “majority wants” is a good thing and I trusted the statistics that depicts in 10 years time nursing will still be a fad. And I did choose to be one of them “Nightingales of the Future”.

During my first year, I adjusted well, almost the same as my highschool days except for the experience is 3x harder. On my second year we started having our duty, I was excited, the moment I’ve longed been waiting for finally arrives, my first duty, I was assigned to a female 93 year old patient suffering from Acute Renal Failure, I had a wonderful time spending with her, I felt the fulfillment of seeing someone satisfied and grateful for your service. I bathe her, read her newspapers, told her stories, secured her, fed her, I tried my best to please her, and I know I succeeded. Alongside with our duty was a case study, this was not easy, I had a case study for myself, and I did another as a group. It became more nerve-racking when I entered third year and fourth year, I have my new classmates since we were reshuffled in class (though it meant new friends as well), adjustments, start of the sleepless nights, I just came from a one heck summer of pure duties and numerous case studies, and here we go again more of it, history always repeats itself, this time bigger and bolder, I just came from a lecture which ended at 8p and waking up the next day at 4a, making sure to arrive at school an hour before call time(which is then 30 minutes before the duty time) facing a terror instructor 3 times a day (asking you a pathophysiology while performing a procedure in the operating room, or asking you a rationale on your intervention infront of your patient, if she’s dissatisfied, better call your mom and exchange places with her.) handling 3-5 patients (the personality varies for each one of them of course, one of them can be depressed, moody, elated, angry, frustrated, obsessed, confused, or worst unconscious, you need to deal with all of them nicely, kindly, cheerfully and courteously, patience and understanding is a must!), you need to have a plan for your daily routine, and if there were any alterations with it be ready to make up for it, this includes, waiting for endorsements which you are itching to have but your endorse mate is still nowhere to be seen, knocking and introducing yourself (scripted: “Good morning, afternoon,evening ma’am/sir! I am insert name here I will be your student nurse from insert your duty time, If there’s anything you need, like assistance, please feel free to press the bedside button right there, and I’ll attend to you shortly. Thank you”), checking intravenous lines and other lines therein, medications (which must not be forgotten and must be taken at a right time or else it’ll be a serious issue between you, your senior,  your instructor and most of all your conscience) vital signs and intake and output (frequency also varies from the conditions of the patients), hygiene (some of the patients’ significant others are incapable of replacing diapers and cleaning their poo-poos so they call us to do that for them), documenting accurately and neatly otherwise repeat the entire paper you destroyed, establishing rapport, interviewing the patient for a case study but don’t be too obvious about your real motive,  pretending your confident in doing an unfamiliar procedure (though you have instructors at your side), you need to, if not, your patient will not trust you. Fix any minor problems you accidentally did before your instructor knew (the adrenaline!), for grave offenses better hide your head under the patient’s bed, though we were only student nurses then, we are trained to be responsible of our actions, and not to do anything that we are not knowledgeable about. Finishing the duty was a sigh, but at home, I still got loads to do, my drug study, mastering the case of my patients, remembering the skills I learned for the day, concept maps, teaching plans. I can’t even imagine did I really surpass those? I was sure I was on the right track (because looking back I think I dealt it quite good) not until now.

I am saddened by what we’re undergoing right now, experiencing the dark times for nurses, especially for fresh graduates. Yes. This is a big challenge for us which we cannot be nonchalant of. We are OVERFLOWING and SCREAMING. However on the brighter side it’s an honor to be chosen as one of the challengers if you can consider this defying event game of our lives. It is our strength that’s mightier, our minds wiser, our patience longer, our understanding wider, our horizons broader, our roads clearer, and our spiritual aspect stronger. It’s the hope that someday everything will fall in their perfect places. That somehow those who are depriving us of chances, those who are hoodwinkers, making money out of our desire to serve and support our families, those, cynical and false critics who throw us sarcasm, those who are reluctant in helping us to shine once more because maybe afraid we might outshine them all, and to those who are laughing at us of what we’ve become today, as tomorrow comes, they will laugh no more, that their conscience will surge them to wake from sleep, and most of all that somehow their good hearts will be the one to dominate their selfish materialistic interests. Nonetheless, we still keep on moving forward, that’s life, we shouldn’t stop, we yield hope in every adversity we experience, and most of all we yield trust to God in times like this or times we are grateful for.  

Being a Nurse is a mixture of sacrifice and passion. I admit, I am not in love with nursing, I took it for the thought I might receive a good pay and other shallow reasons, but never for the benefit of those people who need me, I was selfish and I know that sucked! Maybe what’s happening right now, is an eye-opener, not only for me, but also for those who are in the same situation and who had the same thinking as me. Money is not all that matters. I realized that what you loved most will satisfy you, not focusing on how much and how many will you earn in return for that talent you’re passionate about and delivering to them.

I was on the verge to regret everything, maybe my life would be better if I chose this and that, maybe I’ll be happier if I chose what I love that time, maybe I’ll be more wonderful if I chose a different path, “MAYBE”, but there’s nothing to do, but to say “maybe”, because I already did my choice, and I can’t go back to the past and undo things. I am now a nurse and I know God placed me in this position for a reason, I believe He knows that this is the best for me, it’s the best for me to undergo such situation in order to realize and learn things I will not be able to realize if I haven’t be down as this, and actually negative as it seems, it did so much positivity in my life. I was humbled. I learned to see things on the brighter side, I learned to appreciate the Nursing profession more than just a plain “get rich fast” way (as they say 5 years ago). Honestly, I am still figuring out the passion for my profession, I am striving to be happy, so it can reflect with my actions to my patients. Be inspired of benevolence. I consistently pray to God, that He may lead me the “right way” not the other “materialistic way”. This experience offered me so much there is in life, maybe just maybe if ever I would be given a chance to go back and undo things, maybe, I won’t.